Tell Me

Tell me what you want
Tearing out my soul for so long now
Need to know
Can handle it all
Empty your heart
Release your soul
Just need to know
Loving the games
But feel lost
Waiting and waiting
Grasping and clawing
Always guessing
Not ever knowing
Coming apart from the inside out
Suffering in silence
But written words telling all

Cracks

Cracks silent in their demise
Bending
Weaving
Wrapping their silent lines
Inch by inch
Day by day
Corrupting the mind
Blinding the eyes
Spreading their poison
Silently
Violently
Till everything is twisted
Broken and gone

My Control

Nails scratching
Flesh reddened with passionate lines
Clothes scattered
Ankles flung back
Tasting
Devouring
Thighs clenching
Writhing and screaming
Animal instincts taking over
Not stopping till you come
Flicking
Licking
Swirling
Every trick in the book
Finally exploding on my tongue
Holding you there
Feeling every tremor
Enjoying every moment
Ummm that sweet smell in the air
Tasty wetness on my chin
Letting you rest for just a moment
But not too long
Cause now it's my turn
Think i will flip you around
Spanking so lightly as i bury it deep from behind
Screams buried in the pillow
A smile upon my face
A little different than before?
I am in control this time...

Boiling

Boiling at the surface
Tortured feelings
Building
Pushing limits of endurance
Always bottled
Kept under wraps
What i desire
Conflicting with morals
Tearing myself apart slowly day by day
Painful
Dying inside
Just want to cry
Scream what i feel
To reach out
Hold on
Never let go
For once in my life to be happy
But i can't ever be
Something so close
Yet unattainable
So far out of reach
Damn these feelings
These constant
Never ending immoral feelings
Just wish i had the courage
The guts to open my heart
To say directly what i feel
But i can't
Scared i will push too far
Scared i will overstep my bounds
Too scared of loosing my friend

Angels

Hearts break
Old flames die hard
One minute bliss two minutes gone
Love so sweet
Now January air
The world stopped and has not started again
Childish games tear out souls
Trust bleeds for revenge

5/?/92

Listen

Your number curls and fades as it hangs upon my wall
Like the love we had soon it will disintegrate
I try so hard to hang on to what not there
The beauty of your smile
The warm smell of your hair
They linger with me and will never leave
Now i walk forever alone
Thinking why did you leave?

1/?/89

A Hollow Vision

Still no dreams
No sunlight
Only clouds and mist
Days flash by
Nights with no rest
Hollow and dull the pounding of a heartbeat
Throat clenches the bitter pill
Blind eyes envision the little white disk
Down it flows
Keeping me from cutting my wrists
Still no dreams
No sunlight
No rest

8/01/03

A Fine Line

All i can do is try and hold on
Not getting to close for fear of loosing you
A fine line has now been drawn
Your actions playing me like a pawn
One day so close
The next so far
My heart is all confused with this thing called the blues
Today is good for i love you as my friend
But when i awake tomorrow my soul will bleed till there is no end
Each and everyday i reach my breaking point
But still i push on
The reason if i don't
My one true friend will be gone

11/26/90

On And On

On and on we go
One day so close
The next so far
My mind is awash with the pain of you
I see you one way
You see me another
The typical case of we can never be together
Today i am fine and love you as my friend
But tomorrow who knows where my feelings will land
Each time i see you i fall deeper in
The color of you hair
The soft glow of your skin
All this hurt and confusion
Yet i still grin
For i can always look forward to you being my friend

11/90

Again And Again

Again and again you come and go ruining my life with your flash and glow
Stepping on my heart but not caring enough to see
Now you lied again
So now your gone forever
My heart refusing to let you back
So around you will come begging for my forgiveness only to find i quit dealing with your monkey business
Please o please you will say with a tear in your eye
But what you have done is turned my heart to ice
For now i hope your happy and this has opened your eyes
For now like you i am stone faced and blind

6/10/90

Acting

Why am i so silent?
Why do i hols in the pain?
You say i am not bugging you
But in my heart i know it's not true
Can anyone make sense of this?
Your acting so kind yet pushing me away
Lost before i call
Heartbroken after we talk
What to feel?
Confusion over someone that i don't even know?
Possibly in love with an idea?
Will you tell me what you feel

4/19/90

Wicked

Wicked thoughts
Smiling a bit as i undress you in my mind
Caressing skin
Stroking thighs
Tasting whats between
Delicious sweetness
Whipped cream and chocolate syrup
Oils and lotions
Maybe just standing in the shower going at it like animals
Or lying together nibbling and devouring
Building up the passion
Readying for whips and blindfolds
Tie me up
It's what i want
Taste my hardness
Control my pleasure
I will reward your attention 10 fold
Cause when i am done with you
Shaking
Unable to move
Just a grin upon your face
At a loss how many time you came
Oh how i have let my mind wander
All these wicked thoughts left to squander
My twisted side raging out of control
All my thoughts locked
Trapped
Nowhere to go

Carmel And Chains

Carmel and chains

Crotchless panties and satin sheets
Handcuffs with ice cubes stir the mood
Teasing and pleasing with scratching and claws
Pulling tugging and stroking is what's on tap
Licking all the right spots
Fingers making places ready for fun
Tasting
Enjoying
Smiling in my wicked mind
Knowing your in control
Ready and willing for anything
So have your way
Snap your whip
Control my actions
Chain me up
Hold me hostage
Cover me in your sugar
Ready and willing for anything
But the question is can you handle me?